What My Blog Means To Me

Hey guys,

So recently I've reached a situation where I might have to shut down my blog. Though no worries thats not happening anytime soon hopefully at least I hope so after this post. You see my blog means a lot to me and I really dont see anything wrong with blogging safely which is what I do. I do know some bloggers like to stay on the edge of things and trigger a whole lot of issues and end up winding themselves in a sticky sticky mess but I'm different. None of my posts fit the bill I must say unless me talking about books that I love, and my daily ramblings count for frisky writing material.

So here goes nothing.... WHAT MY BLOG MEANS TO ME:

1) Its the one place where I can just write.

2) My blog has taught me a lot and I would definately credit it to improving my essays that I had to do for all my school exams.

3) Whatever topic of my interest like music and tv... I feel like my blog is the greatest place to vent out especially when my friends dont like the same things. Like who else am I supposed to talk about some of the stuff I like.

4) Blogging has matured me.

5) Without blogging at times there really isnt anything to do on the internet thus blogging is a healthy way to spend your time online in my opinion.

6) I write for myself when I grow old and cant remember my young days I hope this blog will bring back all those memories I'd like to relieve.

7) Loved ones like my sister who lives far away .. well she reads my blog and sometimes you know when I dont speak to her on MSN or phone then this is the only way she knows whats going on with me. And thats very important to me.

8) I have 22 followers for my blog, I currently have 2897 pageviews from readers all over the world, and yes the countless of comments from my readers who love my writing especially on certain posts. Thus I must be doing something right.

9) When I'm so bored this blog serves its purpose of de-boring me well.

10) This is one thing I have thats all mine. Just mine.

Well with all that said. This blog is so not going to get closed. It means a whole lot to me and thats it.

Signing out,
Sharanya

My First Paycheck ~ Ka-Ching!

Hey guys,

Next week is officially the end of the month and I'm getting my first paycheck! Hell Yeah! Not only is it my first paycheck but I'm the first person among all my cousins (mums side) and sisters to get a paycheck. Just the feeling of beating my elder sister in doing somethings first like this and driving instead of always being second and coming up a little bit short feels so good though it doesnt really account for anything. Anyways for those of you who wish on asking me to take you out and buy for you stuff with my firt pay I'm so sorry because my salary is so not enough to do so. I get paid RM500 for a half day job and of which I have transport both ways to and back from work because alliya's mum is like the kindest employer or maybe thats the benefit of alliya being my friend. So thats why I feel my salary is quite reasonable though when I think back of the kids I doubt it sometimes lol.

Well what am I going to do with my first salary is hard to say because I know a million and one things I so badly want to buy but knowing me and how I think before spending (a trait I dont quite fancy at times) those purchases arent going to happen. What I do know I have to do with my first salary is spend some of it on my parents so I was thinking maybe taking them out for dinner when my elder sister gets back from Indonesia. Its true you know when its you're money being spent you think and think and think honestly I feel like my parents are saints for spending so much on us sometimes or maybe I'm such a Scrooge. I bet my grandmother will be the happiest to know because my grandma is one of the best person at handling money and not overspending and I wish to be like her you know just the right balance of spending.

I am going to get my license hopefully before I go to college in March. I'm trying to claim the new Honda Civic of my dad's as my ride you know just to get him used to the idea but thats highly unlikely to happen so I guess its the old green Myvi for me. No complaints there because at least I have a car. Akka now on when you get back we dont have to be stuck at home! Yeay! As for college plans the updates are I'm probably starting in March, taking A-Levels Arts (Bussiness Studies, Econs and Law) and place is probably at Brickfields Asia College. I know when that starts I'm going to give it my all no more playing around I kinda promised myself because theres a huge dream for me on the line over here a dream that only my friends know of because they have it too and so does a 100 millions others want too so I have to work my butt off for this because I want it so badly.

Also heres another thing I just needed to vent out 7 A's gets you a brand new phone, get 6 A's just 1 freaking B you get NOTHING. Its not that I want a phone like badly or I'm jealous in any way (I'm actually superbly happy for the person that got it) but I just wanted to state that this is not whats supposed to happen to anyone that got my results because it just promotes the wrong thing dont you agree. If I was a total idiot I would learn the wrong lesson here but I'm no idiot so the only lesson I learnt here is work harder and pray for luck :)

*Cant wait for my first paycheck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Signing out,

Sharanya

The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch

So just yesterday I finally finished reading a book that I cant describe in just words. I was at the Final Remarks part and from the start of that chapter till the end of the book I cried because I could just imagine the pain and seeing as this was a real story the pain felt just as real too but dont think that this book is just a sad, sad book because its NOT! Stress on NOT as a matter of fact some of the humour in this book will mind boggle you and the most important part of the book is the hard hitting life facts and positivity it teaches one. Anyways it will usually take me like only a few hours to finish a book that thin but unfortunately I've been busy thesedays as most of you might have noticed. My aunt actually lend me this book and to be honest I'm always a sceptic when borrowing my aunts books and this is because she reads real heavy duty books that my brain sometimes get blurred half way through but when she suggested me the book and I saw how thin the book was I was like heck I'll give this one a try and that's a choice I'm so happy I made.

So what is this book about? This book was written by a computer science professor at Carnegie Mellon, Randy Pausch (who was dieing of pancreatic cancer) with the help of Jeffrey Zaslow. He actually gave a lecture tittled "Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams" and this is what the book was about. Last Lectures are actually quite common amongst professors who wish to end their careers and it is done as a mark of the things and knowledge they would wish to share before their life ended sooner or later and what most professors do is imagine a situation where they were dieing but in Randy Pausch's case he didnt need to imagine since the doctors told him he only had a few months left to live. Randy had a wife named Jai, 6 year old son named Dylan, 3 year old son named Logan and 2 year old daughter named Chloe. So what this father of three wanted to do was leave a mark of himself for his children to remember him and to teach them all the things he would have wanted to teach them if not for the cancer so his last lecture was never intended for us if we didnt want it but belive me you will want it. The lessons he shares with his children are vey much things we human beings simply forget or just havent learned about it yet.

Above: Randy with Logan and Dylan while Jai with Chloe


Now for a few things and lessons that this book shared with me to make me feel more inspired than ever by a form of writing (in no particular order) is:

1) " If you can dream it, you can do it."

2) " Just because you're in the driver's seat doesnt mean you have to run people over."

3) " When you're screwing up and nobody says anything to you anymore that means they've given up on you so you're better or having critics because often they are the ones who care about you and want to make you better."

4) " If I work hard enough there will be things I can do tommorow that I couldnt do today."

5) " Brick walls are there not to keep us out but for us to show how badly we want something."

6) " Luck is indeed where preparation meets oppurtunity."

7) " We cannot change the cards we're dealt just how we play the hand."

and the most important of all

8) " If you lead your life the right way, the karma will take care of itself. The dreams will come to you." So have dreams and always believe in them but basically dont obsess about them because if you live your life the right way they will come true someday whether in one way or another because thats what Randy Pausch did and he made them all come true in his way

Above: Randy's favourite picture with his kids Logan, Dylan and Chloe

I must say the lessons I just quoted from the book is only less than a quarter of what the book has to offer. Plus there's a story behind each of these lessons pretty much, this was how he had learned the lessons and believe me the stories will really paint you a more detailed and just stunning picture of these life lessons that are so valuable. It also stuns you again at the beauty of family. So... GO BUY THIS BOOK BECAUSE YOU WILL SIMPLY NOT REGRET IT!

* When I become a parent one day I'm going to read this book again so for all the people that are soon to be parents or already are you know you just have to read it.

Signing out,
Sharanya